In all honesty, it's internal bitching from the little bitch girl I tend to be when I'm pissed off, especially at myself... Please accept this apology for what is to come, and also take it as a warning of what is indeed to come.
I am continually frustrated by the ways that I respond to everything. Everything anyone says comes as a personal attack to me and my weird brain, and I respond thus. How does this work out in the grand scheme of things? Pretty terribly.
We recently had a couple/marriage counselor in our class for a couple hours, and she talked about the role the amygdala plays in our responses to everything. As a lover of everything psychology and how-we-work-y, I was instantly intrigued. Here's what she said:
- Prefrontal cortex isn't involved in an amygdala flare
- An amygdala flare is where you find yourself going from 0-60 just like that (insert snap here)
- Facing chronic stress increases the size of your amygdala
- An increased size of amygdala leads to oversensitivity and interpreting others' responses as personal attacks
Nothing has ever made this much sense to me in my life.
So here I am. I'm supposed to be writing a two-page paper and working on my eight-page paper (I finished the six-page paper two hours ago), but I'm too angsty and pissed and GEH to do anything but vent hopelessly and hope that nobody actually takes the time to read this.
That being said, I apologize and now I'm going to write my papers and go to bed.
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